tHe saCred one..

aidil

2009-10-21T19:26:00.000+08:00

hey!!

I PASSED MY Bike license!!!

WOOO!!!

so happy!!

aidil

2009-10-07T19:24:00.003+08:00

hmm..

Called her last nite regarding something important..

Haix..Have to admit i do miss her voice..

But too bad..I can't go further..

Really not advisable..

Think back of the history and the anger is still there...

But i do miss her..

aidil

2009-08-24T19:53:00.003+08:00

I'm currently thinking about my future...seriously very important.

I have two choices.

The first one is to sign on as a paramedic in SCDF,meaning I'll be ur neighbourhood rescuer.

Working in ambulance 48hrs...

Things to consider :Shoulder surgery soon (Affects PES status requirement)

:Passed IPPT..(It's easy except standing broad jump..really killing me..)

Second Choice is to further my studies in SIM or PSB,hmm..Bachelor in Accountancy most probably..

Things To Consider :MONEY!!(Expensive..Can I afford to pay the fees?Not cheap seriously especially SIM)..Taking loan?Risky...

I have to weigh both choices..but i really want to be a Regular in SCDF..

Let's juz wait till the surgery is over..

Can't wait for long MC from camp..woOhoO..ORD mood after that..

aidil

2009-08-22T12:50:00.002+08:00

Wokey!

Today..I'm in da mood of listening to old skool songs..

Feel freaking bored with indo songs..

Let tune in to legends!hahahaha

But hey..nice n soothing..lol..maybe for this week only ah..lol..

aidil

2009-08-07T15:35:00.001+08:00

DELON-AKU PATAH HATI

Ku...Di Sini duduk
terdiam membisu
baru..ku sadar atas kenyataan ini..
kau tak ingin diriku..
kau buang aku..

reff:
oh..cinta..
ku tak berbalas
hasratku terhempas..
apalah artinya semua slama ini..
kau beri harapan
sepertinya indah
namun kenyataan tak seindah mimpi
kau hancurkan aku
kau lukai diri...
aku patah hati..

tak ku sangka
semua ini..
kau lakukan
kepadaku

aidil

2009-08-07T07:52:00.003+08:00

I guess it's over now..

I hope she's happy wif tt guy..

Really sorry nurul, won't be able to accept u anymore..

It hurts..

I'll forgive u..

This is for our own good..

U're still not serious and as for me..I'm really lookin for a serious one..

Sorry kinda rude to ask u go to sleep last nite..but didn't meant to..

Didn't get enuff sleep last nite,couldn't stop looking at my inbox..

But hey..move on..U got the other guy who loves u i supposed..

U dun lose anything!

I thought u were the one for me..unfortunately, u're not.. :(

Listen to tt St12 -cari pacar lagi..

"I am sorry..ku tak akan love u lagi.. :( "

aidil

2009-08-06T17:49:00.003+08:00

Hey blog..Long timenvr blog..

Every time blog,surely there's a sad story behind it..haix..

This time is one time big one...

There's this gal i noe for 2-3 mths from a fren of mine..

We had good time together,i thought i finally found da rite one..

Everything was fine, we confessed to each other and she really seems to be happy..

She's was waiting to get into her university in Msia..

I knew most of da guys who wanted to get to know coz she seems to be honest wif me at tt point of time.

We've promised to each other not to find a new partner when we're far apart.

The way she clinched her finger onto mine and made a promise..really couldnt get off my mind..

Every nite we called each other,even though she's in malaysia..we thought of really being close at heart..

She dun really like me tok abt the gal i used to like in da past..and i respect tt..

But she always toks abt guys wanting to noe her..and tt saddens me..

So the day comes for her to enter her dream school..

Really proud of her..

1 week gone,browsed her frenster and saw this guy..featuring in her featured fren..along wif me..

His name is Farid or watever shit..

I asked her gently but she refused to admit tt she got aniting to do wif him,they're juz frens..

I guess i can't do anting if she said so since i have to trust her for we're in distance relationship..

The week after..her first return back to singapore..

She only had 2 days here...

I decided to tell her to meet her parents since she really missed them n told her tt we can meet the next time she coming back..

She was really excited to meet her parents at tt point of time..

Weeks after weeks past and finally she said she's coming back to singapore..

I was so excited!

It's has been a mth since i saw her..She wanted me to fetch her from bus interchange and i agreed..I took Off on tt day she's coming back,change my duty wif my colleague,get excuse to go home early for preparation..

Everyone in my workplace noes abt it ,even my doctors noe abt it..

She's coming back on 31st Of July which falls on Friday..

Thursday arrived...We chat on the phone and she said tt she didnt want me to fetch her on fri..

Coz she's tired and wanted to go home straight..

I agreed to send her straight but she was unhappy wif it..

She said "let's meet tomorrow.."

Kinda disappointed but better than nothing..

WAited for the day to pass..

Saturday arrived..

I called her at 1pm.."are we meeting later??"

NO REPLY..

Kept calling and msging her but.. :(

No Reply... :(

It was 6.50pm..I decided to go to the mosque for prayer and hopefully she call or msg me to fetch her..

Not even close..

Quite disappointed but still putting hopes on it..

Decided to go to my aunt house nearby..

It was 8pm then..

She msged..

"I'm sorry ,have to send my frens clothes at her place.."

WAT!!!

She could have told me earlier,i begged my mom for car so tt we can travel easy but she did this to me?????

She apologised as if nothing happened!

Asked her.." nurul ,wat am I to u??"

She said.."i'm really tired to answer tt qn,i need a rest"

Wah..she really gettin on my nerves..But i juz stayed patient and shared my story wif my besfrens..

The next day she called ,she apologised watever happen and she dun wan to think abt it coz she's too tired..

n yea..it's ok..i forgave her and tried to forget watever juz happened..

Yesterday..turned on facebook and look at her profile..

She did this quiz "wat kind of bf/gf are u?"

Her result was laid back..

ok..

Then there's this guy named Farid giving her comments..

"How are u dear?"

She replied "good,u?how's ur test? :)"

I saw tt and questioned her..

"do u have aniting wif him?say it honestly.."

She said no..Many guys always called her dear or sayang..and its no big deal to her..

Wah..ok fine..

It kept running in my head,questions all over..I couldn't control it and decided to Question tt Farid..

Muhammad Aidil

nice...

2 hours ago · Delete

Laila Fatiha

thanks aidil.

about an hour ago

Muhammad Aidil

Farid tk laid back gak?bagos la kalau same..

11 minutes ago · Delete

Muhammad Farid Ash-shiddieqy Abas

yay! got the same result

8 minutes ago

Muhammad Aidil

oo..bagos ah..ade chance ngan hayah..suke hayah kan..

7 minutes ago · Delete

Muhammad Farid Ash-shiddieqy Abas

hehehe

thanks!

5 minutes ago

Muhammad Aidil

da lame kenal?

4 minutes ago · Delete

Muhammad Farid Ash-shiddieqy Abas

lama jgk.

4 minutes ago

Muhammad Aidil

ic..bagos2..krg slalu contact eh.. =D eventhough she's in msia?

2 minutes ago · Delete

Muhammad Farid Ash-shiddieqy Abas

yup.

even though she's far in distance but our heart is close to each other

Before i'm able to ask him more,SHE REMOVED me from her Facebook..wow!

And guess wat she really playing behind my back!

I got it clearly and she really stranded!

She kept msging me and called me..

Does she think i'm gonna give her second chance anymore???

She called and kinda frustrated,decided to answer it..

I asked her.. "U didn't meet me the last time u came back was becoz u met him rite??"

Her answer was "yes..didnt tell u coz i noe u wont like it.."

I got tt answer and said.."good.."

Asked her when did u guys started?

Her answer,"since the day i enter my uni..he contacted me tru email.."

Asked her ,how old is tt guy??

She said 19..

And he really sounded like a small kid when i qn him..

Good for her and i decided to put down the phone..

The pain is so extreme and i dun think i will forget this moment..

I'm really hurt big time..Didn't expect the person i love,would do me this much.. :(

I seriously couldn't control my tears after putting down the call..

Seriously Painful.. haix..

aidil

2009-08-06T17:44:00.001+08:00

Good song to entertain someone who has just been bastard big time..yea..

Let's pray will get a sincere one..haix..

Anw, can a guy cry?Or should he juz show his ego side?

Lirik Wali Band Cari Jodoh

Apa salahku Apa salah ibuku
Hidupku dirundung pilu
Tak ada yang mau dan menginginkan aku
Tuk jadi pengobat pilu
Tuk jadi penawar rindu
Tuk jadi kekasih hatiku

Timur Ke Barat
Selatan ke utara
Tak juga aku berjumpa
Dari musim duren hingga musim rambutan
Tak kunjung aku dapatkan
Tak jua aku aku temukan
Oh tuhan inikah cobaan

Reff
Ibu-ibu bapak-bapak
Siapa yang punya anak
Bilang aku
aku yang tengah malu
Sama teman-temanku
karena cuma diriku yang tak laku-laku

Pengumuman-Pengumuman
Siapa yang mau bantu
Tolong aku kasiani aku
Tolong cari diriku kekasih hatiku
Siapa yang mau

aidil

2009-07-19T20:28:00.003+08:00

woo!
long time nvr blog..

yea..finally i feel like bloggin..

Juz got a new phone..yea..happy..finally wif camera..E63 je..cheap one..but nvm..still good enuff..

I'm goin to liverpool match against Singapore this friday!yea..

Anyway...What basically going tru my mind is,wat am i going to do after NS?!?!?

Signing On?

Further Studies?

Stay home?

WAT??

hmm..

And yea..i'm turning fat again!Woohoo!

I miss her..when is she returning back to singapore?

aidil

2009-02-18T19:44:00.001+08:00

I'm so..

STRESS!!

aidil

2009-02-07T13:03:00.002+08:00

Wat happens when someone suddenly knock on ur door to sell crackers..
hmm..usually ppl juz say no to them..
That's wat i did juz now..told them that i got no money(which was true) and my parents are not at home..(which was untrue)..my dad was sleeping in his room..
The problem now is..the guy who knock on my door,bring along his 2 siblings..looking very very poor and looks like they came from indo..
After they left..i felt really sorry for them..Dunno if they're really poor or not..but i seriously feeling guilty not buying their crackers..Even if i dun wan the crackers,i should at least donate some money if i have the money..

I hate seeing poor ppl in front of my eyes..haix..always finished up my money,giving ppl money..
i juz not able to control my sympathy towards them..haix..dunno if they trick me or not but i really feel and very sure that some of my money is not mend to be mine..it could be theirs and i have the responsibility to pass it to them..

Juz imagine if u have the same life as them..live in hardship,work very hard to find customers and the profit u gain is not as much as u expected..wah..
Imagine u have to live..kais pagi makan pagi,kais petang makan petang..kesian..haix..
rabak pe !
It's juz not their luck,i dun have cash wif me..haix..

aidil

2009-01-01T21:01:00.006+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE..
Forget about 2008 and start anew..yea..

Everyone celebrated countdown??
yea..good..but i dun..lol..
Went to town wif Ashik and Taufik..Wanted to see fireworks..
But ended watching IP MAN at THE CATHAY..at midnight..Recommended By Taufik..And yea..da movie does worth your money..
Seriously amazing da way he fight..
cool shit..
Read on website and the actor said he trained for 9 mths on Wing Chun(Fighting Technique)..
And he injure his right shoulder just to practice on da speed..

Reached Home at 5 am!!walao..
Sent everyone home including Umar and Mary(met them while going home)..
I fell asleep while driving..and da car was swerving from right to left and left to right!!
arghh!!scary!!ALHAMDULILLAH!!!no car was next to me!
Perhaps not time yet ...haix..

There's so many chix yesterday..I wonder how mat rep get gals hu are so pretty..How eh??Mat rep use susuk??lol..
But dun care la..none of my business..Juz their luck..lol..

aidil

2008-12-08T20:58:00.002+08:00

Yea..i juz bought this book at borders last saturday..I seriously feel that i need to learn how to save money.Perhaps not till millionaire but at least a sum which i can use to pay for my further studies at least.If able to be millionaire then y not??

This book is rather simple to understand and here are some of the contents:
1)Seven steps to financial abundance
2)Nine habits to self made millionaires
3)How the rich mange their money
4)Managing money and controlling expenses
5)How to massively increase your income

and many more...

Ppl may laugh to see me buying this book but i seriously feel it's very essential for my future..
If i'm discipline enuff to follow wat this book says,i may not suffer so much during economy downturn in da future..

yea2..laugh2..confirm got ppl laugh..

aidil

2008-11-30T17:50:00.002+08:00

Let's pray for my fren hu juz passed away Abdul Malik..
He met a bike accident and not able to survive yesterday..
Salam Takziah to his family..

Riders..please becareful..haix..

I juz bang onto a bike last tues and now Malik passed away due to bike also..
Makes me reconsider to take bike license..eventhough i already started taking it..

Al-Fatehah..

aidil

2008-11-29T22:38:00.001+08:00

So..How do i turn my shape very quickly as shown in da pix below..

THIS IS THE REASON!

I JUZ CAN'T STOP!LOL..But chill..2 weeks time,I will be normal..

aidil

2008-11-23T08:28:00.004+08:00

This wat happen when u wear a thick suit during training,and look wat happen when u dun control ur diet..

Maybe coz of my suit!but look at my face!!Round!Need to start dieting..I Dun need to run,coz every mon,wed,fri we run 4km..

aidil

2008-11-23T08:21:00.002+08:00

Morning dokz..
Woke up in da morning and tune in to utube..
Watched all da old videos which was taken during my poly years..
Wow..can't believe i did all those stuff and it's an extremely nice memories..
Do stuff like dikir barat which i didnt expect i would do it..eventhough the performance was berterabuh but happy it was nice..coz the lyric,part of it i did it..haha..
That was when everyone was still together..ppl like calvin who dun understand a single thing but still perform it..haha..nice..

Watched all da silat videos,prank videos when we're at University Of Malaya goin for Silat frenly..Pranks which made Bala turned into monster tt freakin nite..haha..nice..
MCG videos during 2006/2007..when i was still slim!!!!!!now wat happen?!!?!?!?!?alamak..
All becoz of FYP and a gal..
So moral of the story dun try to woo a gal...hahaha..Depression ah ni..hahaha..

aidi

2008-11-22T19:42:00.002+08:00

yea..juz came back from vivo..
juz finished watching madagascar wif my youngest sis and my aunties as well as her kids..
Funny movie especially when it comes to the penguin and tt skunk thingy.i dunno wat animal is tt..
Monday posting out to new unit..yea..
Has anyone seen the show "suci" on Sensasi..
It's da most ridiculous show i've ever seen..
About a gal who work as a maid and a nanny,looking after a baby..
She wants to go to skool and her master allowed her..

Guess wat!Her master told her to bring the baby to skool!wth!!
Studying wif a baby on her hand???and she's only ard 9 yrs old!
CRAP!!!haha..

aidil

2008-11-16T18:55:00.002+08:00

long time nvr blog..
Tonite i'm bookin in at 11pm..nice..
haix..wat a bad weekend..
It feels like shit when u're suffering from diarrhoea..
Haven't eaten the whole day..no appetite..Vomitted twice last nite..haix..

There's a lot of things happening ard me..
Example in camp,ppl trying to act as if they kena possess..
Reason:To gain da excuse of not staying in da camp..

Went shoppin after book out wif my old fren..She followed me after work..

Hmm..Y havent my heart be opened to new gals?
I wonder y..
It's been a year..and difficult for me to get attracted to some new gal..I dun wan to stay single all day way..muz find someone to replace her..

And also there's a gal whom i juz recently known..have difficulty communicating wif me..I got no idea!

I miss my skool days..

And i'm feeling so sick now..haix..:(

aidil

2008-10-25T07:10:00.002+08:00

yea...had fun yesterday..tiring but quite fun..
Went trekking at macritchie reservoir yesterday..
Was a random outing..me,fir,raudah,umar and raudah's anak sedara..lol..

Seriously too random..nvr have i ever thought of doing this activity..
Wanted to go up the HSBC treetop walk..but already closed coz we're late for an hr...Then we return back..but this time was by different route since the initial route to the top was freaking far..So..all the smart alex took different route..and guess wat..we're lost..yea..baik abes..
Have to walk a freaking far distance to reach the carpark..
hmm..it was a 5 bus stop walk b4 reaching the main entrance of macritchie..yea..baik abes..

Kaki da longgar gak tu..like route march sey..haha..
then went to KFC..lantak ayam..da lame tak makan beb..

Today's plan..sleep2!!maybe soccer..wah..since bmt till now..haven't touch a single soccer ball..rindu rasenye..

And yea..finally my exams are done!yea..freaking stressful 5 weeks at camp..Exams on how to rescue ppl..wah..really2 stress like O lvl..it's been a long time since i memorised exam notes..haix..

aidil

2008-10-12T10:09:00.002+08:00

yea..it's sun..
had a good day yesterday..
Outing wif the selatra seniors..long time no see...nice2..
10 of us..juz nice..not too many,neither is it too few..
Started off wif my house as usual...wasted so much time waiting for ashik hu's being caught in da rain...
Haix..ate so much!
muz go jogging oredi..
REceived few compliments which is not very convincing!haha..
one house said i lost weight,the other said i gain weight..so..which one eh..
I think we should accept the positive one ah..haha..
An outing which started at 1.30 and ended at 12 midnite sharp..

Went johor awhile after tt..refill petrol..freaking tired..sleepy n seriously pancet..

Have u ever wonder will u get a good wife??
The ladies sitting in my car yesterday kept toking abt marriage..
hmm..it comes to mind..Wat is my life partner like??
Will they be like some old couples like i see outside..
When the husband is on the wheelchair,unable to walk and seriously very weak,the wife is there to push him and sacrifice in taking care of the husband...
It always put a smile on my heart to see these ppl everytime..
"Wat a lucky guy tt old grandfather is..having a good wife..going tru the good n bad times together.."

Adakah benar seorang manusia itu dilahirkan berpasangan??
Hanya Allah Sahaja Yang Tahu
Dan Kewajiban kita untuk Yakin dengan statement itu..yea..

aidil

2008-09-28T18:37:00.002+08:00

IT's sunday..28th sept 2008..
3 more days to hari raya..
I've just done my area cleaning..lol..yea..
Basically i've cleaned up my room,wiped off all da dust,paint da walls and tidy my cupboard..but it's still messy..
It's still in condition whereby when u wanna go on holiday and in a rush..juz put the luggage below and da only thing u have to do is just open the cupboard..and automatically the clothes will go in directly into the luggage bag..yea..u should try it at home..

Yesterday went to geylang..bought a new white chapal and a new songkok..da old one is torn..Pray too much i guess..lol..

After tt went to arnold to have follow up buka..

After dinner wanted to take cab..me,zul and umar thought of taking the cab nearer to PIE..so we walked till we reached wak tanjong Mosque..hmm..taxi nowhere to be found and we decided to call for taxi..Reached home at midnight..suprisingly parents not at home..they went johor..

I saw a cockroach at the void deck and it reminds me of my family humor part..
My dad..who is the king of the house...scared of cockroach..U can put the cockroach next to him and u'll see him running as if he's still 20 yrs old..

My mom is someone who is scared of kitten..weird..
she's scared off kitten but not scared of cat???

And me..i'm scared of cats..lol..

Few more hrs and have to go back to camp..haix..sad sey..penat gler sey..
But this time round dun have to go back wif uniform!!yea..
can go in wif civilian clothing..good2..no more boots..leceh..

aidil

2008-09-19T12:11:00.003+08:00

Have U watched an old movie called "THE MESSAGE"?

One of the best movie ever created..The Beginning of Islam..

It shows exactly what we have learnt so far from the history of Islam..

How they won the battle in badr and lost the war in uhud..

Fuh..cool shit..I spent 3 hrs watchin this movie in utube..

It's juz tt u're not able to see the appearance nor voice of Rasulullah(S.A.W) and Saiyidina Ali..

Saw the cd in a cd shop..Thought of buying it but i was afraid tt it contradicts from wat we used to learn abt history of Islam..

I tried searching it in utube and tried to watch it..They took reference from Al -Azhar..so..it should be orite..yea..nice show..

aidil

2008-09-18T11:30:00.002+08:00

Yea blog..
Finally bought my baju raya..mahal dokz..abes duit!
Bought purplish pink..more of purple ah..yea..and saiful bought white..
Went geylang after buka wif saiful,kholiq hitam ngan umar..
Surprisingly,it's not pack in geylang..Good sey..

Have to buy my own clothes..haix..
My dad has to settle my sisters hospital bills..
So..pity him ah..buy my own..
He told me to do tt coz he knew i juz got my pay and
i think he feels tt NS pay is $4k..asked me to pay everything..wah..mati ah ni mcm..
Have to refill petrol everytime i use the car..pengsan..

Declared Bankrupt!

So..yea..only went terawikh once this yr..maybe today i'll go ah..
Hmm..Ramadhan feels different without terawikh..
Went to terawikh..wif all da zikir..sounded very sad and when i looked at some senior citizens praying on da chair..makes me think...
Will I be like them?
Will I ever be old?or will I die when young??
Will i suffer so many sickness when i get old??
Will I start panicking to pray to God coz i noe i got very little time to live when i'm old???
How will my kids treat me??
What if I'm not able to handle my kids well??
What if they miz wif wrong company??
Will they have the same mentality as me??
Will I die in peace??
Will my kids pray for me after i die??

Sometimes I hate myself..coz i like to think everywhere i go and have deep thoughts..Making myself worried over something which not necessarily need to be thought currently...
But i like the zikir in darussalam ah..after 8 rakaat or 20 rakaat..nice..yea..

aidil

2008-09-11T06:14:00.000+08:00

I GOT OVER U!

success!

aidil

2008-08-30T08:17:00.000+08:00

Guess wat..I've realised that my level of maturity has risen... So how do i actually determine this?? It's by blog.. I read all da post in 2005 ,when i was a yr 1 in poly.. Wah..I really behve like a small kid back then.. Da stories i wrote..kind of sad but oso kinda humorous.. Especially about gals that i have big time crush on...

hmm..this is da good thing about blog..
it helps u to recall da past..

kk..recent update.. I've learnt alot when in camp..
I've learntto identify the different type of character of a person..
Whether he's a fren or foe.. Whether good or a selfish one..
It shows clearly during training..
I wonder y muz these ppl behave this way..Does it really benefit them alot?? I doubt so.. I manage to do my friday prayers in camp..
Finally manage to have time to do it.. Can't wait to go back to skool!
i wan my degree!

aidil

2008-08-09T22:49:00.002+08:00

2 weeks gone..
Everything went quite well..
enjoying my life wif something new..
But kinda feel lonely in camp..
Everyone tok to their loved ones..
while i sit on my bed thinkin of old memories..
Getting back to shape..:)

Sadly..My hair..All gone..:(
I feel like playing soccer wif my head...so round..lol..
I've turned very dark..da hangus..So freakin hot overthere..

I wish i have to do da same thing as da rest..msging the loved ones..

aidil

2008-07-20T04:27:00.002+08:00

yea..it's 4.28 am now..juz came back..
Went to Alalim restaurant (Al-ameen ) at bukit Timah ard 11.40 pm last nite..
Went there wif my frens..hmm..5 of us..wif 3 cars..
I didn't bring mine..so tumpang je..
Chit Chatted abt their NS life,one of us wanna sign on for civil defence...hmm..Ate prata,mee goreng,murtabak..haha..yea..

Then ard 1 am..we went to one private circuit..Car circuit..very ulu place..near brickland..Desserted area..Dunno wat's da purpose of goin there..haha..then went to mount faber at 2.30 am..lol..tOk crap over there..joke ard..my fren played his guitar..haha..
Kinda fun..doin this b4 enter NS..chillin..have fun wif frens..free the minds..And reached home at 4.20am..

Had to sneek into da house like a robber..haha..coz dun wanna wake my parents up..lol..So..now..maybe i'll lie on da bed..chill,dream and wait till subuh arrives..after Subuh,can sleep for as long as i can..haha.

Maybe tonight,will go joggin..
But i twisted my ankle and hips when i fell while playing soccer..walao..embarrassing sey when i fell while stoppin da ball..haha..cam nangka busuk..lol..

They plan to go johor tmr..to refill petrol..hmm..still deciding to go..coz i can't drive my car..my mom using..haix..mendak abes..i hate sittin behind as passenger..boring..

aidil

2008-07-18T04:05:00.002+08:00

It's 4 am sharp when i woke up due to a freaking bad dream..

YEsterday i went to do some fitness in da gym and silat training before entering NS next friday..
And ate KFC wif my mates and we tok basically tok abt each other couples..hmm..and they asked abt pau kacang..and i said not contactin her anymore..BUT...look at wat i'm gonna type below..:

I HAD A BAD DREAM..
I dreamt that my fren was in contact wif pau kacang!
He noes that i like her and he still purposely do tt..He started scolding me all the unnecessary stuffs and i was so freaking mad and seriously,freakingly ,uncontrollably heart pain..
I told someone in da dream to pass me a knife coz i feel like stabbing my heart..
I called him and he toks evilly to me..
I planned to meet her the next day after the phone call and heard that he's following..wah..
In da dream...i cried and beg him and asked why is he doing this to me..
He gave stupid reasons..
He said that he juz met her and asked her the way of the road..He was working near her..
And she recently gave him a present..wah..heart pain sey..cried to da max..
Then i put down da phone and walked away wif great and huge amount of disappointment..
And I woke up..
To the relief..It was juz a dream..Hopefully it doesnt happen..
Proven..I miss her and still love her..haix..

But what to do...haix..

It's 4..15am now..juz have to chill awhile and wait for subuh to arrive..

aidil

2008-07-16T20:57:00.002+08:00

Yea..
Friday,i will get my pay..
Friday,i will do my shopping for NS..Meaning:
1)New Cameraless HP
2)New Toiletries..PAntene shampoo..
3)New Detergent
4)New Swimming Goggles
5)Lots Of New Underwears..Cannot wear boxer sey..haix..
6)Maybe a $5 slipper at market oso nvm..
7)And Most importantly..I must watch Batman "THE DARK KNIGHT"..yea..can't wait..Alone oso nvm..

aidil

2008-07-16T17:10:00.002+08:00

Finally,i've quitted my job..10 more days to NS..hmm..
Eat,sleep,comp..Same thing done for dunno how many times..haha..
Then when my mom was back from work..she told me to send invitation card to my old neighbours..My neighbour is getting married...damn..so fast..
So,i drove to cck..ard 10-15 mins and return home..

I reached my flat and took the lift..
When i reached my level..i saw a boy..lying on da floor with the mom crying..
Wah..shock sey..I offered my help to the mom..The mom was crying all along..
She told me to asked the taxi driver whether can pay by nets or not..
Hmm..i juz went down and asked tt uncle and he said can..

So..when i went up back..tt secondary school,indian..sean kingston looking guy sat up..I think he's drunk..Then he stood up..Swaying all over da place and confronted me..lol..i wan to laugh sia..i noe he's with some gang ah..coz i see a mark on his head..
That guy really dunno hu he's messing wif..I seriously have lighten my leg and anytime my leg will land on his face..

The mother controlled him and pushed him away and was crying.."Dinesh..dun2..he's helping me!"

Wah..i was seriously sad to see the mom crying in disappointment and also worried of his son..

My mom has to be grateful that her son is not this type of kids..Mixing wif wrong company and end up..being in da trashcan..

The embarassment his mom has to control..haix..sad..

That is why Islam forbidden alcohol..This wat happens..Dun even recognise ppl hu's helping you..haix..

Initially i thought of at least draggin him to his house..since i can't carry him coz he's freaking taller and larger than me and he look like sean kingston..And he confronted me wif his hands like rapping.."SEAN KINGSTON!You are so beautiful girl..~"

After i walked away,he scold me "F*** Y** everyone bastard me ah!"...lol..nvm2..sabar je..i noe he's drunk and perhaps some of his frens have backstabbed him..

Interesting..
Aku nak cakap je budak ni..secondary school nak minum2..

aidil

2008-07-15T16:24:00.008+08:00

I was watching utube at work..I accidentally found these legendary videos..
Old skool Rap from Malaysia.."NICO"..
If u recall..it sounds like.."Alamak Alamak..menyusahkan mak bapak"..ring any bell???
Nico,A to Z ,KRU,Feminine

aidil

2008-07-09T23:43:00.002+08:00

so how??
yea..life has been good..
Kinda happy..no gal..no this no that..no stress..going wif the flow..lol..
NS coming soon..25th July..AShik da masok,lepas ni aku lak..haha..

K..so..recently..I'm quite happy to be in the office..
My boss's room is leaking and she's quitting soon on the 18th..
So,she moves into the same room as me!
I was so shocked..
aS usual ah..I was suppose to reach office at 9.30 am,but i reach everyday at 11am..lol..sO hu's the boss now..haha..
Last Monday,when i reach my office..i saw her sitting in my room..wat the heck..i was holding my breakfast..Hotcake with sausage meal..drink change to ice milo!!

Lol..walao..panic abes..
She sits directly next to me with her computer doing work..
wah..she so nice sia..ask me to eat..dun care her..she dun mind..lol..

She tok and tok to me..like normal fren..
Today..i didn't feel like goin lunch..guess wat..she treated me Nasi BRyani la sey..baik abes pe..I came back from prayers,then saw one packet of Nasi bryani on my table..haha..
She served me la..haha..
She lay all the tissue on the table so tt the gravy won't spill and she even help me to take can drink from the fridge..lol..

She told me to quit on da same day as her..on the 18th..ahaha..

She juz knew i plan to take accounting degree..

Fulamak..she suddenly gave me all the tips..
How i should start my career,wat module is important,which part of my career is the peak one..
She explains the accounting term if i dunno..
baik abes..
Very encouraging..
She earn more than 5k a mth as an accounting auditor..Baik gler pe..

She even told me to quickly finish work and go home..dun care the job in the office..lol..haha

The best employer ever..

MEMORIES....

2008-07-01T22:00:00.008+08:00

So blog..

juz wanna share something..

This whole week..When i was at office, i love to watch utube..

So this week,i try to look for ceramah2 of Islam..

Hmm..I advise u to watch it more often becoz it will affect u to be aware of all the things which u have forgotten and to realise that you are in a dreamland..

Forgetting wat is going to happen on this planet soon..

After all the big and very obvious evidence of the end of the world..

I muz change my life to be a better person..and try my best to achieve the basic thing in Islam

which is Solat..Insya Allah..

So..if u wanna watch a ceramah or syarahan which is very entertaining and simple,u can tune in to Ustaz Akhil Hay who used to be a rock singer of Riyadh and he has changed his life since the 90s.His band was established during late 80s if i'm not wrong..

And wah..he make good use of his voice to do dakwah..and change his genre to nasyid..nice..

The utube i put on my music is him..

Whereas if u wanna to watch something detailed and to answer most of ur doubts ,u should watch Ahmed Deedat.A pro in Islam..No non-Muslim is able to defeat this guy in debates..He's juz magnificent..

So..juz now..after work..

I went to do shopping alone..haha..first time..

I went to queensway to buy a street soccer shoe..

I wanted to go to IKEA after that to buy a huge frame to frame up my silat uniform with old pictures to it..For memories..hehe..but i guess i have to save some money..coz i've spent quite alot today and was rushing for maghrib..

So then it was 7.55pm..took bus 33 and went to redhill to pray at masjid jamek..
Memories of masjid Jamek..First mosque i went wif a gal named Arafah..lol..Used to really like her..BUT..i became dumb everytime i meet her..to shy to tok..haha..tt was the first time aidil walk wif a gal he likes..but it was juz a short distance..coz the masjid is juz next to our skool in Tanglin..yea..

I was wondering of how unfit i used to be..BECOZ..everytime i took the path to skool from redhill mrt,i will always perspire..However,when i walked to da masjid from redhill juz now..i felt tt..da distance is so freakin short..LOL..The path which me,fir,ashik,bala,ma,raudah,aini,amin usually took after silat which ended ard 9.30 pm everytime..MEMORIES

aidil

2008-06-30T11:06:00.002+08:00

this morning..this freakin monday morning..after i watched German vs Spain..
I thought of taking a nap while waiting for subuh..I wanted to pray..
So i took a nap..
When it was about to sunrise(syuruk), there's a very very very very fragrance smell..on my bed..wah!
shocking sey..i snooze abit ah..the smell got stronger..wah..
Correct me if i'm wrong..was tt a malaikat??(angel)..coz my door was locked and no one could enter wif a strong perfume..
I got freaked out..and act normal..and slowly get up..

aidil

2008-06-30T05:16:00.002+08:00

Die taknak kluar..haix..okla nvm..
i juz realised my face not on her featured fren..lol..after so long...orite..
so it shows..
I'm cool wif it...understood..

yea faham2 je la..

aidil

2008-06-27T21:28:00.004+08:00

so blog..
let's update abt ISC..
Summary..we did perfectly well for the competition..coming in 3rd for the overall medal tally..
Managed to slot in a short dinner wif my only pau kacang..yea..It's been 6 mths since i last met her..wah..it felt so good,happy..i wish we go out everyday..haix..simply feels so different when goin out wif other gals..If only i can stick my eyes and look at her everyday..i guess i won't be gaining weight as much as now..I will only gain weight when i'm sad or stress..
She still look da same..hmm..maybe abit of weight gain..MAYBE..
I went to skool after went dinner wif her..eating cockles and fried cockle rice..
Entered the sports hall, wif a big smile on my face..
Everyone looked at me..and confidently said.."ah..happy nampak..kluar ngan "pau kacang" ????"
wah..da terror members aku eh..bagos2..

So wat happened during the competition..
I got to noe this SP gal..she added me on msn..and chatted..
Every single day,she has something to complain abt and always requires my advice..
I noe it's not a good advice but juz help la..haha..
and now..she told me she has feelings for me..
hmm..weird beb...
so..she was at jurong east one day..and i was at bukit batok mrt going to work in da morning while she's goin to skool..
she wanted to take train together and i agreed..
so when we met,we tok..

BUT! i juz dun feel comfortable wif her and simply dun feel good abt goin out wif her...
i wonder..y am i feelin so awkward??
I dun feel tt wif pau kacang but always feel terrible wif other gals..
am i being brainwashed?
but hey..i guess tt SP gal wasn't fated to be mine..
and so..i told her tt i refuse to have further relationship..as i dun feel i would be sincere enuff when being wif her..

And sincerity is important in relationship..it determines how long u will last wif her..

But i feel that no use having a gf now..EVENTHOUGH i still love my pau kacang..since i'm entering NS in a mth's time..i rather spend my time hanging out wif my frens..playing soccer..go makan..and tok crap wif them..haha..yea..

I juz realise..
Maybe it's becoz i still have feelings wif my pau kacang, da feeling going out wif other gals feel so terrible..eventhough tt gal is pretty..but dun care la..
aidil2...bler nak tukar mindset???

I fought terribly..haix..

I look freaking fat in this photo..yea.."THE ORIGINAL 5 OF SELATRA"

Pioneers of RP silat..the alumnies..

I look thin in this photo??SO which one is the correct size of my face????

aidil

2008-06-09T10:28:00.005+08:00

A week has passed..
The fun,tiredness and the joy cheering for each other was there.
The coolness of Rp students with their hot apparel..
So far everything is running well.
We have to go back late every single day.As a host, most of us were exhausted even b4 the competition starts..yea..
I don't feel i need any gals now.Takde je yg dtg..kental btol..
luckily i have my team on my back.

PRe-Post ISC

aidil

2008-06-02T16:17:00.002+08:00

Give me ideas what to do as a substitution of a cancelled very important meeting which will motivate you to succeed in something!

I need ideas!!

How am i goin to confront my opp with such a low morale????

haix..cancel lagik..knape la takde nasib slalu..
knape eh??heran!

aidil

2008-06-02T13:44:00.000+08:00

2008-06-02T13:38:00.001+08:00

aidil

2008-05-30T10:15:00.000+08:00

aidil

2008-05-28T12:10:00.000+08:00

Awesome Video

aidil

2008-05-28T00:21:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah..

Thank You My GOD,yang MAHA MENGETAHUI dan MAHA PENYAYANG.
You have given me a perfect present on my birthday..27th May..
Eventhough it happened for few seconds, I appreciate your present to me..
You have answered to my long waited wish.
I feel so happy eventhough the look of it is not as sweet as expected.

I realised that I regret saying all the things i've said to her b4,after i looked at her face.Innocent..
But, I can't undo what i've done before..

God,you cleared a small portion of my misses towards her.

I wish i can tok to her alone,but it won't be possible anymore.

She don't seem to be pleased when looking at me, but the fire in me to fight this year competition is growin brightly and I will fight till my last breath
for the sake of my happiness of getting a few mins look at her..

You're still the one

aidil

2008-05-26T12:47:00.001+08:00

Shit!
I saw her clone..
Exactly the same at jurong east MRT station..
Just abit taller.
The way she walk,face..wah..same..
but nvm..forget it..

aidil

2008-05-22T13:49:00.002+08:00

hey!
My laptop is alive!
BAIK GLER NYE ABES!
Miracle la sey..
The night before it crashed,i did something to my computer.Something bad.
As in ,any parts can come off at tt night.
The next day,i brought my comp to school and i had a bottle in my bag.
Tired with training,i refilled my bottle with water.
Never did i realise that i didn't tighten the cap!

Water dripped in and hit my laptop!
wah..
I placed the lappy in front of the fan,to let it dry before i on it.
After it has dried up,i on it.Operating system couldnt be found..fuh.. baik pe..
I tried several times before i gave up

The next day i on it,it turned blue screen..haix..

Yesterday,i tried to on for fun while reading the papers.
Out of the blue moon,it suddenly starts to work.

yeay!

Happy gler my matair is still alive..
I cannot live without her sey..
How to go msn,check emails,play FM when she's dead!

aidil

2008-05-21T11:36:00.002+08:00

aidil

2008-05-20T13:59:00.001+08:00

LAPTOP CRASH!!
Thanks to my water bottle.
Water dripped in the bag.
LAPTOP unable to detect OS!haix..
Beli lagik!
Baru nak save!

aidil

2008-05-18T11:32:00.007+08:00

6 Helpful Tips To Immediately
Increase Your Confidence

1) Ask yourself, “What’s the worst that could happen?” Too often, we place excess importance on potential problems. We all have a certain amount of energy so let’s apply it to creating extraordinary relationships, advancing our careers and meeting our goals INSTEAD of wasting that energy worrying. Take action on what you have control over and minimize risks for what you don’t. Then invest your energy wisely.

2) In doing something for the first time, imagine that you have already done it in the past. Close your eyes, then vividly imagine you succeeding wildly at what you are really going to do for the first time. The mind does NOT know the difference between something VIVIDLY imagined and something real. Make it vivid by involving all 5 senses.

3) Find someone who is already confident in that area and copy them. Model as many of their behaviors, attitudes, values, and beliefs for the context you want to be confident in as you can. How can you do this? Talk with them if you have access to them. If you don’t have access to them, get as much exposure to them as you can.

4)Use the “as-if” frame. I literally love this frame of mind. If you were confident, how would you be acting? How would you be moving? How would you be speaking? What would you be thinking? What would you tell yourself inside? By asking yourself these questions, you are literally forced to answer them by going into a confident state

5) Disarm the nagging, negative internal voice. That negative internal voice can keep anyone stopped. To disarm the internal voice, imagine a volume control and lower the volume. Or how about changing the internal voice to Mickey Mouse? Do you think you could take Mickey Mouse seriously if he were criticizing you? Change the voice to a clown voice. The point is to disarm the voice by altering the way it nags at you. If I hear my own voice nagging me, it stops me. If I hear a clown voice, I laugh and continue onward.

6)Remember that you lose out on 100% of the opportunities that you never go for. To get what you want, ask for it. I fully believe that if I ask enough people for whatever I want, I can get it. This is not necessarily true and yet it’s a useful belief. As you think about your goals and what you are striving for, how effective would it be for you to believe that all the people out there want to help you if you only ask? Whether that is true or not in the “real world” does not matter. If you find that belief empowering, I invite you to adopt it as your own.

I need to increase my confidence.Muz make my team proud.Overall Champ is our goal!yea..

aidil

2008-05-15T15:43:00.004+08:00

Hi Pau kacang..
This msg goes to you..The only place i can express myself..

I'm here writing feeling very depressing coz u're making my life very very very difficult.
U msged me whether i'm angry or not due to the nite b4's problem,i answer back and said no..I'm juz disappointed.
U replied back.."meaning we can't meet la?hmm..yela2..bye tc"
Wassup wif that msg??
Since when are we meeting or shall i say since when u wanna meet me.???
Everytime i ask out,u will give me tons of excuses..
Then ok la..obviously u wouldn't wanna go out wif me and i'm fine wif it..

But,this msg...haix..
It's like u..waiting for me to feel angry and waiting to say GOODBYE to me..
Haix..I seriously dunno wat to feel..

You can choose not to use tt msg to hurt me but instead u did..haix..
I noe i was really desperate to meet u but after this post..really has made me think badly of u..

I Love u so much and never ever have i ever thought of saying bad things abt u..
I DON'T WANT to hear myself to be calling you "stuck up"
Even when ppl tok bad abt u,i always defend it for u..eventhough u dunno..but..it's orite..

TERUS TERANG je la..haix..
I noe i dun suit u..tapi..knape taknak terus terang..??I dun mind jiwang sendiri,berangan sendiri..but hey..i can't focus on everything i'm doing..haix.

When i told u this..u told me to be professional..and u're making fun of it..ntah la..
Try ur best..take advantage..use ur skill on how to hurt a guy on me..DO IT!

If u think it's fun doing this,then carry on ah..
Good luck wif ur exams..

I'm sick of this..

aidil

2008-05-13T13:10:00.002+08:00

Menjaga Hati by Yovie N The Nuno

Masih Tertinggal Bayanganmu
Yang telah membekas relung hatiku
Hujan tanpa henti seolah bertanda
Cinta tak disini lagikau t'lah berpaling...
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini...ooo...
Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
engkau pergi aku tak kan pergi
kau menjauh aku tak kan jauhS
ebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu...ooo
Masih adakah cahaya rindumu
yang dulu selalu cerminkan hatimua
ku tak kan bisa menghapus dirimu
meskiku lihat kini kau disebelah sana

reff
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini...ooo...
Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
engkau pergi aku tak kan pergi
kau menjauh aku tak kan jauh
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu...
andai akhirnya kau tak juga kembali
aku tetap sendiri menjaga hati...
Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini...ooo...
Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri
engkau pergi aku tak kan pergi
kau menjauh aku tak kan jauh
Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu...
Sejujurnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu..
ooo..ooo...ooo...ooo

aidil

2008-05-11T20:06:00.003+08:00

Hey..
Had a family gathering with my uncle and untie..They're toking on how they gave birth to us and their children..
Interesting stories were told..
Interesting facts about my siblings..haha
All of us were born on FRIDAY..
I was born on friday 2pm,after friday prayers..
It's an honour to be born after friday prayers sey..haha..
My second sis was born on Friday,3 am...
My third sis was born on Friday,8 am..
Cool sey..
My second sis had difficulties comin out,haha..and now it's proven..she's stubborn!
My dad told us how he fought wif the nurses hu were unsure wat to do and requires my dad's help..haha..cool..

I was surprise wif my aunties story..
Her son refuse to come out..
In the morning,her dad told her to pluck the grass like how a cow does..
She does it by plucking without using her hands..lol..
All of us started laughing..can't imagine how she did that during subuh..
I wonder if people saw it..ahaha
And she manage to give birth on tt afternoon..
Funny..

aidil

2008-05-09T17:56:00.002+08:00

Finally..it's weekend..
Haix..i'm so freakin tired...
Today has been a freakin exhausting day..
Job not done and was busy handling TSC stuffs in office!!!!
wth..

Klakar pe!

I need people to help me sey..haix..
Org keje ,skola..takleh buat..
Aku pun keje gak..eventhough tak skola..penat gak dok..
Haix kental btol!
Nasib ade zul,mai utk tlg..
si zul kental ni pun same gak!
suruh call vendor pun takleh..
bz buat video..
video sal ppm??
Pompuan2..racun tu..hati2..lol..

Imagine..aku buat bodoh sal ni semua..
Alangkah indah nye kalau semua terkejut katak,panic..haix..

Tapi tkpe..

It's a responsibility..
Penat pun penat ah..terpaksa..tapi tlg ah..haix..rabak beb..

I muz relax myself and go down to school tomorrow and
battle wif the kentalans main carrom..lol..
Train la krg tol2 k..
Abg pro nnt dtg..jgn nangis kalau kalah..k?ok best..

aidil

2008-05-09T11:40:00.002+08:00

Aku dan Dirimu

Ari Lasso feat. Bunga Citra Lestrai

Tiba saat nya kita saling bicara

Tentang perasaan yang kian menyiksa

Tentang rindu yg menggebu

Tentang cinta yang tak terungkap

Sudah terlalu lama kita berdiam

Tenggelam dalam gelisah yang tak teredam

Memenuhi mimpi mimpi malam kita

Duhai cintaku sayangku lepaskanlah

Perasaanmu rindumu sluruh cintamu

Dan kini hanya ada aku dan dirimu

Sesaat di keabadian

Jika sang waktu bisa kita hentikan

Dan sgala mimpi mimpi jadi kenyataan

Meleburkan semua batas

Antara kau dan aku.... kita

nice song..soothing..

aidil`

2008-05-06T21:37:00.002+08:00

Finally,found a job..
Thanx to my cousin who helped me get a job at her workplace..Sony BMG
A great working environment,everyone seems to be very frenly and helpful.
I was given a small room of my own,with a comp.So, I sit alone,doin my work without anyone distracting.
I was told by the stuff to listen to the cds if i want to which are placed on the shelves.There's tons of song,and i decided to listen to radio instead.
They said even if i wanna blast of the music from computer,nobody would mind..cool eh..but i used earpiece..

They told me to get drinks from the fridge..I hesistated of goin to da fridge initially..Paisey sey..
But when everyone went for lunch,i opened the fridge.It was filled fully with all types of drinks.
Milo,NESCAFE,COKE,SOYA BEAN,GREEN TEA and etc..I grab a can and sneak back into my room...

I love this job eventhough it's quite far..Spent $4 everyday on transport..walao..no more concession..leceh sey..

aidil

2008-04-22T10:40:00.008+08:00

i suddenly feel like posting old pix..haha..

YEAR 2005...3rd BATCH OF REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC

2005 (ZAMAN KENTAL ABES!bulat dan tak senonoh)

No wonder gals run away..haix..

Bz at botanical garden area..Doing culture & Aesthetic module..

2006

After Bahas..Nasi lemak..sedap beb..

I LOVE MY CHECKERS SHIRT..

2007

aidil

2008-04-22T10:30:00.000+08:00

Ingat tak lagi janji kita dulu aspalela
kau dan aku akan bersama
sampai ke hari tua
tapi sayang janji itu dirampas orang ketiga
oh aspalela jangan buat ku kecewa
*sampai hati kau pergi kepadanya
makan hatiku bila kau berkata
patah hati dengan hubungan kita
hancur hatiku aspalela
terpisah kerna terpaksa
akur desakan keluargaku sedar bukan kehendak
mutapi apakan daya
adakah lagi harapan untuk kita bersama
oh aspalela apa syarat pun ku terima

*chorus
oh lelalelalela lelalelalela
oh lelalelalela lelalelalela
ooo adakah lagi peluang untuk kita bersama
ooo aspalela jangan tinggalkan ku sayang
*choruslelalelalela lelalelalelalelalelalela
lelalelalelalelalelalela lelalelalela
aspalela

aidil

2008-04-19T11:36:00.000+08:00

Finally..Enlisted To Army

25th July..

aidil

2008-04-10T21:29:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm done wif the worst part of taking any license...
Attending the THEORY LESSON..
NOT DIFFICULT
NOT STRESSFUL
BUT...
BOOORRRIINNGGG!!!

I spent 3 hrs 20 mins today for Riding Theory Lesson..

Fortunately,I've graduated from Class 3C..So,i do not have to attend Basic Theory Lesson..

IMAGINE..BTL + RTL in day..

I'll be spending 6hrs 40 mins...Listening to craps..

Even when only 3 hrs juz now, i received fever..

Leh pengsan sey 6 hrs for newbies (w/o any license) ..haha..

aidil

2008-04-09T19:32:00.003+08:00

Yea..I've enrolled in Class 2B..Bike license..
K best..
Soon...Hopefully bala fail 3-4 time and i get to pass earlier than him..lol

aidil

2008-04-05T09:45:00.000+08:00

YESSA GREEN LIGHT FOR MOTOR LICENSE!!BAIK PE!

aidil

2008-03-31T13:45:00.003+08:00

Last nite..i chatted wif pau kacang..
This morning i had a sad dreamt wif her in da story..haix..

In da dream,I went all over the place to look for her.
Asked her skoolmates and finally i found her..
We were toking halfway and she received a phonecall.
I overheard her conversation and i realised that she's going overseas to further her studies..
I was so freaking sad coz all my effort of finding her has gone to waste..

I walked her home wif her hand ard my waist and my arms on her shoulder..Tears were dripping but i dunno y she was abit stupid in this dream that she didn't realise that i was sad..haha..
On top of that,i think i was listening to puisi cinta while walking wif her..wah..haha..(ade background music lagik)

Then we stop at one area and tok..
She told me to find a new one..
Someone by da name of aida?Hu the heck is that..I dun have any gal frens name aida..haha
She said we can't be together..
I told her i can't get her replacement..Everything is so different wif other gals..
I told her i would have gone wif other gals if it's not becoz of comfort being wif them.
She said i muz try..
She going off da day after..
And told me a whole list of names who will be sending her to da airport.
Her mom,dad,bro,sis..
She told me to leave the airport wif them..

HAHA..weird sia..but seriously when i was sleepin,i can feel the sadness..

aidil

2008-03-24T11:29:00.002+08:00

Hey..

Guess wat..i dunno wat has gone into me this morning..
Immediately after i woke up,i on the computer..Then..
1)I make my own breakfast
2)I clean all da dishes including yesterday's coz my mom too tired to wash.
3)I throw the rubbish in the rubbish bin next to da lift
4)I water the plants
5)I wipe all da tables
6)I arrange all da cushions
7) Vacuuming my room

It's like WOW..I actually did all this w/o ppl askin me or forcing me to do..good2..haha..yea..

aidil

2008-03-16T19:08:00.002+08:00

Tonight..

I will return to my old habit which is to watch movie alone in west mall theatre..
Yea..It's been a long time since i did this.
8pm sharp,i'm goin to watch "Horton Hears A Who"..
From the ratings on the net,it seems to worth all your money..
I Guess i have to try it.Maybe Thurs,i'll be watching a movie called "The Flood"
Natural Disaster..Very nice..

I msged her juz now,but she rejected..She has lots of homework to be done..Not sure if it's true or not..Or maybe,it's juz an excuse for her to avoid me..Dunno la..Malas nak fikir2..

Well blog,pray for me so that i get a job ASAP.I seriously need lots of money to pay lots of stuff to lots of ppl..
And yea..If only she's close to me now,i'll probably bring her along to ride the Singapore Flyers..
It's sure to be freakin romantic at nite..wah..

aidil

2008-02-19T06:59:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm Home..
I miss my bed,my pillow and my fat sister..lol..

Our KL trip was a success..
Everyone had fun except for 1 or 2 ppl la as usual
It ended quite boring coz the gals were ill.
Mai felt like vomittin
Mary had stomach problem
Nina had headache
huda..err..dunno..nvr ask..lol

We had bonded well with the University of Malaya pesilats

The best thing about this trip is about the pranks or sabotage the guys did on each other.
First night at Anjung Penyanyang..
People who was being saboed were
1)Me
2)Asmin
3)Bala
4)Umar
5)Suhaimi
6)Feroz

Second nite till the end of the trip
People who was being saboed
1)Me
2)Bala
3)Kholiq
4)Irsyad
5)Umar
6)Zulazmie
7)Jasman
8)Bala Again

Seriously,it was a memorable trip
We went to petaling streets to shop,the bargaining was fun
We went to masjid India area where we're able to eat A&W
We went to Ulu Yam where we gotta go into the waterfall,freakin cold
We went to Putrajaya(kinda boring)
We went for friendly at University Kebangsaan Malaysia(UKM)
The best part about this uni is that they held a drifting competiition
We can see cars drifting in front of our eyes..Cool abes!
We saboed the UM ppl as well
We manage to see some sweet gals from UM
We had good relationship with the warong seller..He was very nice to us..

I manage to buy my dad an All Blacks shirt eventhough i was in shortage of money and he seems to appreciate it..I'm pleased with that.yea..

I Serious drank alot instead of eating alot..
Variety drinks really tempted me to drink alot..haha
Pictures will be uploaded soon..I juz reached home..

And yea..Transnational bus driver was really superb..
Drove us back to singapore in juz 4 hrs.
Usually it tool us 6 hrs..
So freaking fast and we ended up waiting for the first train back home..yea..

Hopefully there'll be another outing..nice...

aidil

2008-02-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

To my surprise,when i entered da house and when everyone is asleep,my mom placed all the basic stuffs i need for KL.

She bought me body powder,shower gel and shampoo&conditioner..

BUT..bukan sembarang shampoo beb..shampoo batman punya..lol..funny sey..but

very attractive the packaging..

aidil

2008-02-10T16:19:00.000+08:00

This shoe is so hot when playing soccer..Lawa abes!

aidil

2008-02-08T17:21:00.000+08:00

THINGS TO BUY IN KL

New Street Soccer Shoe
5 new T-shirts
1 pair of jeans
DVDs
Souveniers For Her..(should I?)
A hoodies

I think that's about it..Excited abes!

Aidil

2008-02-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

Have you ever thought back of your childhood?

The cartoons you used to watched?

The toys you used to play?

Me and my silat peeps love to discuss about all these stuffs..haha..miss those days..

When my dad used to rent a masked rider(jap ver) video tape from a rental shop..nice

The digimons i used to have..

The pro-yos..

The bumblebees..

The ultramans

The power ranger toys..

The masked rider mask,weapons and etc..

It's interesting when you think about it again..

LEGEND ABES!haha

Aidil

2008-02-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since i've updated this blog..

Lots of interesting stuff has been happening..

Baik abes..

New Experience

New Life

Stress Free..err..Not quite i guess..

New babes?nope..

Getting Fatter?yes..

New heartbreak?Absolutely Yes..

Oh yea..i've passed my driving license..

That was the last post i think...about passing driving license..

Now i've passed and i'm getting bored driving..haha

Aidil

2008-02-07T16:16:00.000+08:00

Tidakkah kau tahu sayang betapa ku sayang padamu..
Engkaulah insan yang ku cinta untuk selama-lamanya..
Tapi disebaliknya apa yang kau berikan padaku kasih dan sayang kini tiada.. pilunya di hatiku.. Kini kau berubah.. kau tak seperti dulu..
Mengapa sayangku mengapa engkau jadi begini..
Kini aku menyesal menyintaimu kerana cintaku dipermainkan secukup-cukupnya..
Hampalah hatiku dalam percintaan..
Engkau membuatku tidak mahu bercinta lagi sayang..
Mengapa engkau permainkan cinta yang sudah kita bina..?
jikalau tak sayang lagi berterus terang padaku..
Janganlah engkau menyiksai aku..
Tak sanggup lagi ku menanggung
dugaan cinta yang kau beri terhadap diriku..
Sakitnya hatiku sampainya hatimu....
kau tidak melayan diriku seperti dahulu..
Cuba kau rasakan apa yang telah ku rasa..
kini pasti kau juga akan menyesali cintaku..
Kini airmata pun mula mengalir..
Engkau masih belum berubah..
engkau tetap sama..
Kini aku meminta maaf kerana hatiku dah tertutup untuk dirimu sayang..
Lepaskan aku, bebaskan aku.. pergilah sayang, jangan kembali lagi...

aidil

2007-10-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

PAss my license!wooHoo..wEee!!wah!!yessa!!!!!!Tnx to everyone who did doa for me..hehe..yea!happy to da max!

aidil

2007-10-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

alo my blog..long time no post..bz wif hari raya..

so far..collection money..hmm..not tt much..decreasing every year

ate lots of food..super nice..err..bryani dam,longtong,ketupat,nasi jagong and more..no wonder i gain weight..haha

As for outing wif my frens..it gonna be on 27th..it'll be senior's outing ah..the junior one dunno when..hmm..so far,we've went to saiful's house,suhafana,asmin and munirah..

Can U spot One mama at the back????wearing beanie..

aidil

2007-10-08T09:46:00.000+08:00

wey blog..

today mon..PEnat aBES!!!
Juz bought w880i..new phone..yessa..no phone cannot live sey..

Today..after sahur..or shall i say after imsak..
took all the fragrant sprays,newspaper,plastics and more plastics and vacuum..
Dispose all da worksheets from secondary skools..damn long sey in tt room..turned brown oredi da paper..
Wiped the window panel,freakin dusty...brought down the curtain to change for new one..vacuum all over da wall..damn..my room did look like a cave..so dusty..hahaha..
No wonder kena nag everyday..
I've prepared paint..wanted to paint my room b4 goin to skool but i juz couldn't find da roller..
Perhaps after skool..going to dispose the ''make up''table..nice to see my room shining..
But i'm so freakin tired..penat gler dok!

BTW,i drove from home till geylang..shiok sia..and it's raining heavily tt day..haha..kalau kene tangkap..mati..haha

aidil

2007-10-05T10:04:00.000+08:00

It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)

See it's very define, girl
One of a kind
But you mush up my mind
You walk to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy

Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slightin'
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)

aidil

2007-10-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

PP DONE!

CE DONE!

FYP ONE MORE TO GO!

TP 25 days left!

WOoOHOO!!!

ALHAMDULILLAH!!!

CAN RELAX!

NS SOON!

aidil

2007-09-20T22:15:00.000+08:00

hey blog..

I'm so freakin pissed off!!!
Not because of human but because of the bus!!!
I Was supposed to go bukit batok driving centre at 9.40...
I left the house ard 8.50-9pm..
Usually the journey takes abt 20 mins da slowest..
HOWEVER!!!

Waiting time for the bus to come to my house bus stop to go to interchange took exactly 20 mins..Still orite la rite..
THEN!
Waiting time for the bus to come to interchange to go bbdc took 35-40 mins!!!!!!
I was extremely late..
I have to cancel my plan to go bbdc..because the journey takes abt 10-15mins..
By the time i reach there,it'll be ard 10.20pm!!
And the training suppose to finish at 10.50..30 mins do wat!

arghh!!FED UP ah..!!$50 gone~!
Then ,went to mac..bought ice cream sundae..$1.50!
I seriously hate the buses in singapore..

Wasted $52!!
$50 for license
$2 for ice cream..

If it wasn't for the bus,i wouldn't be going to mac..!!argh!
Seriously testing my patience..
I felt like shouting at bus stop..haha..almost..haha

aidil

2007-09-05T15:21:00.000+08:00

Hey blog..i seriously dun give a shit of wanting a gal anymore..i seriously think it's freakin waste of time and effort..Right now ,i'm thinkin hard about my future..

Will I have a stable job..Can i handle my life?I think this is so much more important than wanting to have a gal..Gals..tend to think they're hot..So when they think they're hot,they then to play hard to get or either trying to be stuck up..

So..Few days back,i followed my fren to SAFRA Open house..Looking at career aspect,i think it's beneficial..Good pension scheme..shall i say..everything is covered..ya..

I juz applied through online,i plan to go on as a regular maybe as combat engineer or combat medic..Hopefully,i can get coz i have a injury record which might slim down da chances..

Eventhough it's gonna be hard,i guess it's all worth it...

$2k as a start,not a bad one..Increment through out the years..Bonuses..hmm..not bad..

So..gals..kick aside..Few bad pointers of wanting a gal right now..

1)Gals tend to play hard to get when they noe they have the looks..

2)Gals uses lots of cash

3)They dun care about u..Self-centered la..

4)Expect kindness when when they treat u like shit

5)Tend to buey da frens..bad2..

6)They're not matured enuff..Easily get influenced by new arrival of guys..

Ya..tt's about it..MOST gals have this..

K...below are some of da pictures which i took wif my high tech phone..lol..

aidil

2007-09-02T00:18:00.000+08:00

long time nvr blog sey..

Today's Date is 2nd September 2007..Her birthday..:D..sweet..

K first of all..i haven't gotten enough sleep due to night shift job at harbourfront..kinda tired..coz after reach home from work around 8,i have to go to my cousin's wedding at 11 am..

So freakin tired..!!Initially,i felt that confirm it's goin to be boring coz my mom's side..is not tt close wif me..

However,it turn out well..Firstly ,was the rewang part..i have t wash the dish and it's so relaxing..I'll tell u da reason later..

Next,my so called close cousin from my mom's side,went to KARAOKE..hahhaha..So freakin funny to da max..i laughed till my stomach cramp..He really can't sing but emotions,image seems confident..hahaha..so soft through out the song but went loud on the last stanza of da song..lol..funny sey..TErkehel..hahaha..my aunties all laughed like mad..hahaha

The emcee were Hussein saaban and USop Bai..funny ah those comedians..haha..disturbed my cousin like hell..haha..

The food were nice..and they're kinda creative..First time i've seen it coz it's been really really long time since i followed my parents to wedding ceremony..

So wat's so creative..

This catering service..instead of using plastic plates,they used a wooden tray,covered wif paper..and it's so easy for da washer,coz u dun have to wash the wooden tray but juz have to throw the paper away..APOLOGY due to dark pic..

aidil

2007-08-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

hey blog..long time no update..

Been abit shagged after fyp..due to personal training..
Since i've gained 6kg,i managed to lose 3kg..due to intensive training..Mon,wed,fri...
I've been running on trackmills..min 15-20 mins..wif my windbreaker on..TRaining on my leg muscles..And!i managed to lose 3 kgs in 2 weeks...happy..my face..few weeks ago used to be bulat..now it's coming back down..BEST!That was last week..

This COMING week,silat training will be held for 3 days a week..Tues,Thurs,Sat..
MEANING..MOn,we,fri=GYM
TUES,THURS,SAT=SILAT!
JUZ now went gym after skool,then ard 8 pm,i went to play soccer..wah..super shagged sey..cannot tahan oredi..my leg hard like a rock oredi sey..

BUT i'm happy la..coz it's working..weight going down to normal..

AND GUESS WAT!I'm so happy..for da last 3 days..woOhooO!...u noe la rite..yea..

aidil

2007-07-30T13:54:00.001+08:00

alu..~

Finally today..30th July 2007..Submission Date for First FYP...FInally it's gone!!!
Yessa..BUT..My programme not 100% working..ard 60-70% is working...die..But nvm la..
I guess now my stress is gone for awhile..I can start my Exercise,dieting back..
I've gained so much weight due to stress..
I ate alot when i'm stress...

However,the pAck schedule is still on..due to PP!Shit..troublesome sey..
At least someone is helping me..nice..Thank u..

Let me make a review of what happened last few weeks..
Basically,i spent time with my family..wah..like surprising ah..coz i've not followed them out for so long...
Last 2 weeks,followed them to east Coast park to eat at the foodcourt..Shopping..
Last week,followed them to watch the fireworks..ate at Zam Zam..Ate a whole lot of shit..haha..mengah2*
Actually i didn't wan to follow them to watch fireworks..BUT my mom didn't cook and i juz came back from skool..So,no choice but to follow them..haix..

Next week National Day..HOLIDAY!Baik ah..can sleep..:D

aidil

2007-07-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

orite..juz reached home..

long time nvr update blog eh..yea..
First about fyp..as usual..not done..submission (30/7/07)
Earlier today,followed my mom to driving centre..she topped up my account..$500..happy!:D
Then she went to geylang,while i went home..
Sat at home alone till my dad reached home..Boiled water..then he asked to help him make coffee..hmm..first time make coffee for my parents..hahaha..
Then at 8 pm..went to play soccer at gombak..I WAITED FOR AN HR FOR THEM TO REACH!It was already 9 by the time they reached..arghh..
Had fun as usual..soccer at nite..refreshing..then went to AL-AZHAR..wif my old fren..Drove there..makan..then went home ard 11.30 pm..
When i reached home..lights still on..my mom still making epok2..hmm..i saw 2 trays of putri salat..she made earlier..i saw the curry potato,she juz cooked for the epok2..She's working wif da dough rite now..hmm..impressive ah my mom..she started making all this at 8 pm,when i was about to go out of da house..
She said someone is ordering them,tmr they collecting..hmm..kesian..

This few days,i've been thinkin abt my parents..wat they have done for me..i really appreciate it eventhough sometimes i cannot tahan their nag..
I have one goal in my life now..
I will work hard,to get good job..
I'll send them to Baitullah..to do HAJI..hmm..
I guess they deserve it once they grew abit older and when i'm afford to do that.I will make sure they will go there before i get married...
Becoz once married,u have more responsibility..So u have to divide them effectively..Rite?yea..

aidil

2007-07-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

i'm in deep shit!!arghh!!

I Seriously made a big mistake juz now!!i played soccer wif my secs frens at home area street soccer court..After playing my fren did a prank on me and called her!!They said i got ankle injury and will be sent to hospital..she believed it and when i heard her voice..really melt sey..haix..BUT..i told her da truth ah after tt..she seems to be very very very angry wif me..eventhough she denied tt she's angry..BUT i seriously feel really guilty to do such things on her..I love her many2 sey..and i did a very bad bad thing on her..and now i dun think she'll trust me anymore..:'(!...Sorry RAIHANAH!!Mintak maaf!!Janji tak buat lagik.!!sorry..:(..:(

aidil

2007-07-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

wey..

reached home quite early ah..8 pm..went to driving centre after skool.My instructor was this fat and short guy ah..i drove 5 mins then he told me to stop.He told me to help him buy red bean bun..hahahe said he's choking..ate ikan goreng then accidentally swallow the bone..ahaha..funny sey..kept complaining abt his throat whether to ask doctor to pull it out or ask his bro...
Everything went well on my practical and i met syiqin too at bbdc..juz ended her lesson too..hmm..my TP will be on 10/10/2007..Hopefully if i pass,i'll get to drive during hari raya..nice.!hahaha

2007-06-28T10:25:00.000+08:00

Yea..lepak lepakz at town..sick staring at comp at home..on wed..so sian..

aidil

2007-06-26T09:42:00.001+08:00

May her heart be opened one day :)

aidil

2007-06-24T02:29:00.000+08:00

aloo..blog..haix..

Juz reached home..Played soccer wif my neighbours..Been together ,the 3 of us for more than 10 yrs...One of them entered NS oredi..So,today he's at home..so we spend more time together ,da 3 of us..share our stories..nice..windy day at bukit batok..
Bought 2 packets of lemon tea and 2 packets of coke..tOk crap all da way..listening to their love stories was fun..How they handle their problems..haha..nice..

I have a problem too..I'm in dilemma currently..Ppl tOkin negative stuffs about the gal i'M so freakin in love with..well..I did consider it initially..but i juz knew them and how can i really trust them??A gal who has a crush on me..tts wat she told me..did tOk crap too abt her..erm..
I guess..their advice didn't work for me..coz i really do trust alot to the gal which i always dreamt of..I don't know if she's truthful or not..but i'll trust her..
Tawakal sahaja..I let God handle all this stuffs and see how it goes..I'm not her bf ,not her husband..y should i be angry wif her..
And i can't juz listen to one side of the story and agree wif it..I have to think more critically..
This is not a small matter..Either one is not tellin da truth..But to da gal that i'm seriously in love wif..I do trust u..But plz dun take it for granted..i beg u..I've faced a couple of time wif this problem..and i did suffer da consequence..so right now..i have to do more critical thinking..and patience..

Hopefully God lead me to the right one..Insya Allah..

aidil

2007-06-18T09:34:00.000+08:00

hey morning my blog..guess wat..today my parents are comin back..arghh..so fast..i still wan to be king at home..do everything i like!!..hahaha..Cooked my own dish yesterday..Sambal SArtong..dunno rite..ah..nice..

Had fun sleepin so peacefully yesterday wif cool weather..fuh..puas hati ah!
Went to play soccer at nite wif my old frens..hmm..same old joker ppl..i cannot stop laughin when tok crap wif them..haha..i love disturbing them...they chill at my house awhile and didn't i noe..my fren does da same fyp thing as me..but he's from NYP...woOhoo!i like it babe..

Today i have to wake up early juz to wash yesterday's dishes,wash the clothes in washing machine,flower the plants!!!wat the heck!!hahaha..but nvm la..the plant is for my dad la..he scolded all of us if we nvr water his plants..arghh..his nag!!worse than my mom u noe!!

so..i think they shouldn't be complaining too much eventhough they WILL..They won't miss complaining for sure..haix...used to it oredi..haha..my sambal sartong still got abit left..the tong is done..left the sar now..one more left..hehe..

aidil

2007-06-15T04:51:00.000+08:00

aloo my blog...

I'm feelin good rite now..First of all,i am so paisey to her..I msged my sis to buy an ice cream for me while going back from my aunt's house..Accidentally,i sent it to her and she laughed and make fun out of it..damn..but nvm..as long she noes i like ice cream is good enuff..hehe..

This week i've watched 2 movies before going off to work.First was shrek 3..erm..kinda boring..i almost fell asleep halfway through the show...Abit of wasting money...haix..

Juz now,i went to watch Ocean 13..Definitely movie of the year..Superbly done..It's funny,actors are cool,very mysterious and very stylo..Storyline was superb..i felt so awoken watchin tt show..i laughed alot watchin tt show..It doesn't meant to be a comedy show but the dialogue was funny..U guys better watch OCEAN's 13..Luckily ,i didn't watch fantastic 4 just now,TODAY newspaper rated 2 star on tt show..fuh..nasib..

aidil

2007-05-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

alo blog..Today my birthday u noe..but no celebration..sian..

haha..spent my day playing FM and did abit of fyp..
eat sleep is my routine for today..weather was good to take a long nap..
Parents went to other blk to help my neighbour with their daughter's marriage..
So,no one at home besides my sister..
Well..a boring day..was countered over by her phone call,her sms in da morning and call at night really turn on my day..eventhough no celebrations or going out...
I'm so freakin miss her sey..finally get to hear her voice..sweet as ever,manja as ever,laughing all da time,funny as usual,cute when she's angry..haha..
Cancelled plan to go out wif her today due to her work which finished after maghrib,so..not really nice goin out late at nite...i have to bear it again as usual..but as long can hear her voice..i'm happy enuff and a satisfaction for my birthday today..well...got abit of money from mom to buy a new pair of shoe..ok la..not much but still can buy..hmm...

tmr fyp..sian..

2007-05-21T15:25:00.000+08:00

back..

Hey blog..today i'm feeling so different compared to other days..
I can't describe it but i noe i have this same feeling 2-3 yrs ago...My life is like so calm ah..so relaxed...I feel really good, and the surrounding feelings..it's different too..Every steps i took,i can feel da difference..serious..Let me try to recall the specific yr i feel so different...hmm..Perhaps when i juz entered RP..There's somekind of proud feeling ..Reason dunno for wat..haha..i feel like i've achieved something but i can't figure out wat..hmm..weird sey..

aidil

2007-05-21T12:56:00.000+08:00

hi blog..

went malacca last weekends..Definitely had fun at kampung...
I became star after long 3 yrs didn't go there..
Everyone was shocked abt my size...tell whole village abt me..wth..
Do i look so different??i see like same only everyday..
but heck care la..famous oredi..hahaha..
Long time nvr see my cousins..
Last time selenge2...now hot chix all..hahaha...not bad eh..da pandai..
motor semua da besar...cool sey..
The kids grown up..dulu pendek..skrg da tinggi cam galah..haha..
I didn't noe they make the badminton court on their own..
It's like the anak anak sidek comic..if u read,they got their own badminton court outside their home..Cool sey..at nite after isyak,everyone come down to play badminton..
The thing is they play like in competition.so high spirit..scream here ,scream there if miss da hit or watsoever..hahaha i laughed like mad sia..
The tua2 all pancet..funny sia..instruct ppl like coach sey...haha..

Should have taken photo..wasted..how come i forgot..Rode motor at midnite..super cold sey..haix..then while riding..kerbau beside me..haha shocked..at nite somemore..hahaha..so dark..no lights..so cold..cool sia..i love my village ah..

aidil

2007-05-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

hi blog..

I'm wondering..y do i have to face lots of injuries???first it was my back injury .It strucked me when i was in sec 3.If i'm not wrong,the cause was because of soccer..No warm up and stretching,i start kicking hard and it twisted.I got difficulty sitting down,problem sleeping and difficulty in getting up..seriously painful..it took me 6 mths to recover without seeking the doc's help.

In Poly life i suffered to injuries...One is dislocation of shoulder and the other is skin infection.

Dislocate shoulder due to soccer as well..haix..sian..dunno wat happen and the tissue suddenly torn.Wat i felt was that....I was extremely fat in the past and when i started losing weights,my muscles tend to decrease as well and that might be the reason for the dislocation..

Now is skin infection..I'm not able to walk,it's swelling but now healing Alhamdulillah..Tried both malay treatment as well as doctors help.I have to visit clinic every 2 days to clean up my wound.

When i took picture of my toe,i felt like vomitting..Extreme disgusting ah,wondering how the doctor handled..haha..sorry doc..it's ur job..haha..Imagine the pain,the doc have to inject the puss area..cut off inner skin and leave a hole!!in it..haix..wanna see??wait eh..

Had to use my uncle's stick to go clinic tt nite..

It looks like i'm having diabetes sey..scary..

Disgusting eh..there's more disgusting pix but i shall not show..Thats the reason y ppl see me having difficulty walking but now i feel so much better and now my feet can finally touch the ground and da swell is going down slowly..caya la..can play soccer again!!long time nvr play sey..rugi tak main tau..

aidil

2007-04-30T11:20:00.000+08:00

hey blog..

i was late for skool..haha..woke up at 8.40 am..haix..then kena nagged by my mom..quickly took a bath..makan dulu..haha..then went out..Sadly,i nvr enter class..now in library..hmm..wat is happening to my attitude??not attending class!!..Third yr oredi..wake up!!

THen i took my bus to skool ,963..
In da bus,i listen to this song..and lots of sweet memories came through my mind...
Particularly,sweet memories with the gal who has been really bz wif her Pre U stuffs..
The first time i met her..there's really a great shockness..''am i dreaming ???aidil going out wif da sweetest gal on earth!!''...went first date wif her..haix..i still can remember every moment of it..her smile,her eyes..her laughter..she even saw my blurness at the cinema..hehe..The way she looked at me..after the show really made me so nervous to da max..:)i felt so nervous tt i felt like runnin away!..Her calls everynite really made my day..the funny side of her really amused me sometimes...HEr style is so different from other gals..
Her gentleness when i met her at persisi really melted my heart..always wif her mom and sis..
Her smile from far..arghh!!am i lucky or wat tt time??hehe..

Still remembered one time when she called and i was talkin wif my parents while eating..haix..she really made me panic..i told her to call me later but she refuse..haha..end up..i stop eating and tok to her in da room..
Her jokes sometimes made me on top of the world sometimes too..haha..she seems so pampered and it's nice to treat her very very nice..hehe..everytime i recall back about her..i will start smiling and ppl beside me look at me satu macm..hahaha..but dun care abt them la..haha..

Her presence during skool openhouse oso made me so happy..i felt like sitting wif her and look at her for the whole day without moving..i feel so calm thinkin abt her...

I really miss her so much...Y didn't she enter poly??and now she's so bz wif her studies at pre U..i really hope we're back like we used to...nice..:)

aidil

2007-04-26T22:52:00.000+08:00

aloo my blog..

it seems to be a good day tonite..
I guess u're da only one understand wat i'm feeling rite now...
I dunno why am i angry wif her..
i dunno why am i rude to her...
i dunno why i feel sad
i dunno why am i feeling the same feeling which i used to have...

I thought i've removed her from my mind..,have i?
I thought she's juz a normal fren rite now...
but y am i feeling it again..
I hate the fact sometimes when i tok..her reply will be ok sort of answer..
I hate the fact i will answer alot to her qns..
i hate the fact tt i always have to listen to her story when she noes it can hurt me somehow..
I hate the fact she'll only see my rudeness but not hers..
I hate the fact tt i have to be patience all da time
I hate the fact tt i have to pretend to be ok eventhough i'm not when tokin to her..

But i noe she ain't at fault today...she did ntg wrong..it's juz my heart started to feel anger out of nowhere and of no reason..

I guess it's over...No gals would like to be wif a guy like me..when i'm showing all da bad attributes in me...I guess it's best for her not to tok to me..becoz i noe she's angry when she suddenly went offline after her last sentence..
Eventhough she noes i feel sad when she does tt...but..haix..

I guess there are other people who deserve my special treatments and i'm not able to produce it to her due to some factors..It's very saddening..hmm..but hu cares..

GALS SHOULD BE BRUSHED AWAY FROM MY MIND FOR SHORT MOMENT..THEY ARE THE POISON TO THE HEART..

aidil

2007-04-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

Hey..wait..forgot to update first day pix..nicer..

''AiYoyo..Deedeee...''said bala

aidil

2007-04-24T18:43:00.000+08:00

hey..today blog abt our fun weeked..Me,DD,ashiq,Fir and Bala..went out on sat and sun nite..Had fun takin pictures especially makan..fuh!!!We spent $28 on KFC,$34 on coffee bean,$46 on esteller on da first nite..We spent $20 on starbucks,$70.50 on sakura on the second nite..basically all of us gain weight..especially DD sad to say..hmm..but nvm la huh..once in a while..Should do this more often after NS and maybe go on bagpackin..cool eh..we went to fort canning at nite on sunday..ard 10 pm?yea..should be..we went raffles place..went town..everywhere we go,muz take pix..worse than tarian gals..hehe..

Jamban at centrepoint at somerset...nice eh..can smell from outside..

aidil

2007-04-23T23:45:00.000+08:00

Being tagged so do lor since ntg to do..

MYSELF
layer one: on the outside

name: Muhammad Aidil B Ali
birth date : 27th May.
current status : Sometimes married sometimes single depends on mood.
eye colour : Black.
hair colour : Black and white(uban)MUAHAHa
righty or lefty : Righty on hand,lefty on foot..serious..try my left foot..

layer two : on the inside

your heritage : Malay!
your fears : Mum's Nag
your weakness : Talking to gals..always fail to do it excellently..haha..failure
your perfect pizza : Aloha pizza

layer three : yesterday, today, tomorrow

your thoughts first thing when i wake up : Got anyone msg?
your bedtime : slept at 1 am.
woke up at 630am.
your most missed memory : Birthday parties which i had during my childhood..many present u noe..

layer four : your pick
pepsi or coke : I like uncle djenggot only
mcDonald's or burger king : Burger king
single or group dates : single of coz yea..
adidas or nike : adidas
tea or nestea : nescafe can?
chocolate or vanilla : Chocolate!!
Cappucino or Coffee : cappucino..nice..

layer five : do you.
smoke : No
curse : If really cannot tahan..ooppss..
take a shower : Definitely!!
have a crush : yes! alot..but dun wan anymore ah..relax only now.
think you've been in love : yup,many time.o'oh...
go to school : yea..i love skool!
want to get married : see mood first?
believe in yourself : Of course..
think you're a health freak : erm..dunno lei..

layer six : in the past month

drank alcohol : nope!
gone to the mall : YES! everyday..
been on stage : yup
eaten sushi : yes..i hate it!
dyed your hair : yea..black color..cover my white dyed hair..hahaha

layer seven : have you ever

played a stripping game : nope
changed who you were to fit in : nope..i'm always with myself..self-prinsip

layer nine : in a girl/guy

best eye colour : brown
best hair colour : Black
short hair or long hair : long hair!!wavy one looks hot..

layer ten : what were you doing

1 min ago : quiz!
1 hour ago : playing psp.
4.5 hours ago : In skool...
1 month ago : Training hard.
1 year ago : Stuck with injuries

layer eleven : finish the sentence

i love : The gal i'm in loved..haha..parents of coz,my uncle and my beloved aunty and of coz my God
i feel : tired on my shoulder!
i hate :My injury
i hide :my thoughts
i need : persons which is being needed

layer twelve : tag five people.

Qassrina
Diyana
Carmen
Janice
Whitelillies(do again ah..haha)
*do it when you're free!*

aidil

2007-04-18T00:31:00.000+08:00

hi blog..juz reached home from Tan Tock Seng Hospital

i dislocated my shoulder again during silat training..it's so damn painful..even a soft tab can coz me to cry in deep pain..thnx to cik mail,ashiq and bala for sending me to hospital.
i felt so disappointed wif myself and also felt like crying not to get to enter IVP..seriously,i'm very sad..All my hard work doesn't pay off..i've created lots of expectations for myself.i noe can excel in this competition,i have confidence in myself.Ppl who said they wanna come and support won't have to waste their time comin..dedication of my fight for someone also fail.

I have tears fillin in my eyes rite now.I dun understand y God always fail me to have something i like????:'( I fail in relationship, i fail in silat and i fail to get someone i like for a very very long time..eventhough i have to treat her like my fren now..i feel so useless..ade tak hikmah behind all these????i havent proved to my teammates that i can become a good fighter..every where i go,i'll think of ivp and da gal..i always tink wat move should i use in ivp??will my teammates listen to me if i advice them something?coz i'm not proven fighter.hu am i rite now??my mentality ,my mood,my confidence..have been washed away..so dissapointed.

And for Umar,chill out..i'm ok..it's juz an accident..

I feel so tired rite after few jabs of morphine.feelin very drowsy..Good Luck to all my silat teammates..Glory what we're hunting for..Raise ur spirits!

aidil

2007-04-11T04:49:00.000+08:00

hey blog..good morning..

juz reached home from work again as usual 4 am in da morning..tired u noe..once u sleep,few hours later,u gotta gt ready to go to work again..sian..no life (sigh*).
Went silat training in da day,and in the evening off to work..I'm starting to feel the heat of IVP u noe..I've been starting to select my moves,some of da combos and kejatuhan..so far i'm gonna bring 2 combos wif me..

Sometimes even when i was thinkin abt my match for ivp,my heart will start to pump veryt fast..very nervous and also quite worried i'm gonna lose...i have to set my mindset to very positive..In my brain rite now is abt car license,IVP and my PP..lol..PP haven't start..

Guess wat after 2 yrs in silat,now only am i gonna pay for my silat uniform..eventhough one of it was torn because of the accident the other day where my shoulder dislocated and the doctor cut off the uniform..left wif one now..sad u noe..ahaha..

The makcik at my workplace dun let me quit sey...ask me to stay..u noe y?hahaha coz i do work faster than them..UNITED AIrline specialist..haha..pro sey..

Sadly,most of them have a bit problem in their head..Got husband,still find boyfren at work place..haix..hahaha..I pray hard so tt my future wife won't be like this..
God can send u inside oven u noe if u betray ur husband..ahaha..

Ok la..bro aidil tired oredi hor..nak tido..Ilal Liqoo'