aidil
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Yea blog..
Finally bought my baju raya..mahal dokz..abes duit!
Bought purplish pink..more of purple ah..yea..and saiful bought white..
Went geylang after buka wif saiful,kholiq hitam ngan umar..
Surprisingly,it's not pack in geylang..Good sey..
Have to buy my own clothes..haix..
My dad has to settle my sisters hospital bills..
So..pity him ah..buy my own..
He told me to do tt coz he knew i juz got my pay and
i think he feels tt NS pay is $4k..asked me to pay everything..wah..mati ah ni mcm..
Have to refill petrol everytime i use the car..pengsan..
Declared Bankrupt!
So..yea..only went terawikh once this yr..maybe today i'll go ah..
Hmm..Ramadhan feels different without terawikh..
Went to terawikh..wif all da zikir..sounded very sad and when i looked at some senior citizens praying on da chair..makes me think...
Will I be like them?
Will I ever be old?or will I die when young??
Will i suffer so many sickness when i get old??
Will I start panicking to pray to God coz i noe i got very little time to live when i'm old???
How will my kids treat me??
What if I'm not able to handle my kids well??
What if they miz wif wrong company??
Will they have the same mentality as me??
Will I die in peace??
Will my kids pray for me after i die??
Sometimes I hate myself..coz i like to think everywhere i go and have deep thoughts..Making myself worried over something which not necessarily need to be thought currently...
But i like the zikir in darussalam ah..after 8 rakaat or 20 rakaat..nice..yea..
