aidil
Friday, June 27, 2008
so blog..
let's update abt ISC..
Summary..we did perfectly well for the competition..coming in 3rd for the overall medal tally..
Managed to slot in a short dinner wif my only pau kacang..yea..It's been 6 mths since i last met her..wah..it felt so good,happy..i wish we go out everyday..haix..simply feels so different when goin out wif other gals..If only i can stick my eyes and look at her everyday..i guess i won't be gaining weight as much as now..I will only gain weight when i'm sad or stress..
She still look da same..hmm..maybe abit of weight gain..MAYBE..
I went to skool after went dinner wif her..eating cockles and fried cockle rice..
Entered the sports hall, wif a big smile on my face..
Everyone looked at me..and confidently said.."ah..happy nampak..kluar ngan "pau kacang" ????"
wah..da terror members aku eh..bagos2..
So wat happened during the competition..
I got to noe this SP gal..she added me on msn..and chatted..
Every single day,she has something to complain abt and always requires my advice..
I noe it's not a good advice but juz help la..haha..
and now..she told me she has feelings for me..
hmm..weird beb...
so..she was at jurong east one day..and i was at bukit batok mrt going to work in da morning while she's goin to skool..
she wanted to take train together and i agreed..
so when we met,we tok..
BUT! i juz dun feel comfortable wif her and simply dun feel good abt goin out wif her...
i wonder..y am i feelin so awkward??
I dun feel tt wif pau kacang but always feel terrible wif other gals..
am i being brainwashed?
but hey..i guess tt SP gal wasn't fated to be mine..
and so..i told her tt i refuse to have further relationship..as i dun feel i would be sincere enuff when being wif her..
And sincerity is important in relationship..it determines how long u will last wif her..
But i feel that no use having a gf now..EVENTHOUGH i still love my pau kacang..since i'm entering NS in a mth's time..i rather spend my time hanging out wif my frens..playing soccer..go makan..and tok crap wif them..haha..yea..
I juz realise..
Maybe it's becoz i still have feelings wif my pau kacang, da feeling going out wif other gals feel so terrible..eventhough tt gal is pretty..but dun care la..
aidil2...bler nak tukar mindset???
I fought terribly..haix..
I look freaking fat in this photo..yea.."THE ORIGINAL 5 OF SELATRA"
Pioneers of RP silat..the alumnies..
I look thin in this photo??SO which one is the correct size of my face????
