aidil
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
hi blog..juz reached home from Tan Tock Seng Hospital
i dislocated my shoulder again during silat training..it's so damn painful..even a soft tab can coz me to cry in deep pain..thnx to cik mail,ashiq and bala for sending me to hospital.
i felt so disappointed wif myself and also felt like crying not to get to enter IVP..seriously,i'm very sad..All my hard work doesn't pay off..i've created lots of expectations for myself.i noe can excel in this competition,i have confidence in myself.Ppl who said they wanna come and support won't have to waste their time comin..dedication of my fight for someone also fail.
I have tears fillin in my eyes rite now.I dun understand y God always fail me to have something i like????:'( I fail in relationship, i fail in silat and i fail to get someone i like for a very very long time..eventhough i have to treat her like my fren now..i feel so useless..ade tak hikmah behind all these????i havent proved to my teammates that i can become a good fighter..every where i go,i'll think of ivp and da gal..i always tink wat move should i use in ivp??will my teammates listen to me if i advice them something?coz i'm not proven fighter.hu am i rite now??my mentality ,my mood,my confidence..have been washed away..so dissapointed.
And for Umar,chill out..i'm ok..it's juz an accident..
I feel so tired rite after few jabs of morphine.feelin very drowsy..Good Luck to all my silat teammates..Glory what we're hunting for..Raise ur spirits!
