Aidil 0.1.93
Thursday, June 01, 2006
aloo again my bloGgy fren...haiz..recEntly,i've mixed feelings..in dilemma...
I've reCeived advice fRom my frens saying that i should ignore her,stop tOking to her and if pOssible ,try to avoid from her...
I've seen her niCk..it always hurts me..haiz..fROm a happy day ,it will change to a bad one all of a sudden onCe i seE her nick...haix...
I guess my frens are right..She doesn't like me,doesn't interested in me..sO there's nO point for me trying to tOk to her...When they said that,my heart waS like being stabbed by a knife..
I Tried to do wat they told me..Unfortunately,i can't!!!
I feel so strange,not tOking to her for a day eventhough the wORd that i said was juz a ''hi''..
I tried to delete her but i kept adding her back...
I blocked her but i kept unblOcking her back...
I really couldn't do it...cOz i love her so much!!
It's juz that she doesn't have the same feeling as me...I know she wOn't do da same thing for wat i did for her coz i admit that i'm not her choice..She haS tons of better guys than me..
I asked an old fren of mine..we're in da same pri skool...
She told me not to foRce her...
well,i guess i'm trying not to..by avoiding her as far as possible..Coz i noe if i keep tOking to the gal of my dream,da gal will definitely thought i'm forcing her to like me..
And i dun wan tt to happen...
This may be abit emotional for me..Sometimes when i sat on da bus,thinking abt her and noes that i won't be able to get her,tears will start to form in my eyes...and i tried to cOntrol it...
I hope she get a good guy for herself...cOZ if i noe the guy is taking advantage of her and tt guy is someone i recognise,i'll definitely teach him a lesson on how to take care of gals and nOT taking advantage of them..
And i meant it...
I'll make sure he admit that he wants to be wif her not becAuse of the gal itself but it's becoz she's pretty..
