Aidil 0.1.8
Friday, March 10, 2006
Hey my fren...we meet again..tODay was an extreme boring day for me..I got nth to do..After did my friday prayers,went home to take a nap..till 6..it wAs so nicE!!sleepin in my sis's room..got aircon..haha..my room there ain't any..pity hor..haha..but nvm..
As usuAl,i always recalled back the things that happened in da paSt..and i wAs trying to figure out and spot the aRea which made her had this sense of hatred towaRds me..Where did i go wrong?????hAiz...Is it my personality which she hates alot?Is it my lOok which she disgust about??Or is it ,she who is havin problem rite now and releaSe her frust on me...???IS IT???
Will God evER going to give me the answer to this qn????I wonder...Y doesn't my life in poly saMe wif da oNe in my sEconDAry skool days???I'm not wOrried abt anything which in regard to gals...I dun bother abt gals..in da past..gAls are my rival!!Coz they always put me into trouble duRin my secOndary skool days...
But why muz it change when i entered this pOLytechnic???
Will i be mOre mature Abt this matter???Will i evEr goin to succeed in handlin this pressure???
Sometimes,i have to give in things which i always wanted..I dunno y...But i alWays failed to keep it for a long period...How i wish i can seE my own personality and also How i wish i have other people's perspective abt me..How i wish my emails are flooded abt my personality!!hmMM...
Sometimes i wonDEr toO..although this is kinda weird qn..''Will i every get married???Will i every have a family??Will i ever succeED in life????''
My Mind is floodED wif qNS!!!WEirD qns!!!!!!!I still couldn't find the answer to it..When i'm nOt able to find at leaSt one answer,my mind will continously keep floOdin wif new qns...And sOon my brain will be ruSty..It's like when rain pourS down on a bicycle...slOwly the parTs will turn ruSty..and soOn will be damaged..
