Aidil 0.1.58
Saturday, December 10, 2005
oriTE..it's 6.25 pm..juz eaten sambal udang..sedap..ahaha..oh yea let's start from morning...i wAS so tiREd..my eyes were half open on da way to woRK..i couldn't sleep..i was thinkin of wat i said to her...i was very very curious..hOw cOme i can't contROl my emotion yesterday,am i wrong saying it directly to her??fRom my point of view,it's better to say straight..but her point of view is different..I noe that different ppl have different perspective..erm..nOt only last nite am i thinking of my mistake..even when i was at my workplace,i was staring at the sky...thinkin...i even got scolded for not being attentive...haiz...STRESS STRESS!!!!
On da way home,i thought of it..in bus..everywhere i go,i was thinking abt it..haiz..my life is so miserable now...
While typing now,i suddenly feel that i am very wrong towaRds her...i think i have been a bit exaggerated and i noe i shouldn't do it..
I wanna apologise to her but it's useless...!!!!she won't forgive me...i think i'll juz keep quiet and seE how it goes..if she starts tOkin to me,i hopefully feel that she has forgiven me...
Maybe she dun bother about all this..maybe she is saying ''so what!?!heck care him la!!''...haiz..
she may not care about this,but i personally care about this...
It's a matter of life and death now...
