Aidil 0.1.44
Sunday, November 06, 2005
yea..back home once again...erm..where shall i start?ok let's start wif personal one first..oK first of all,i have made a fixed decision of not to fall for gals anymore.Becoz,if i fall for a gal tt i like,i might end up to be like the current situation..Wif the stupid behavior tt i have,i won't be able to improve the situtation wif da gal but i'm makin it worse juz like the current situation.Yea..i'm jealOus easily and also very pessimistic..SO,if i like a gal,i will juz keep quiet..and juz be frens as per normal.Becoz i dun wan to be an enemy wif a gal tt i love..yea..my objective is to improve the relationship not worsening it..haiz..i'm so disappointed myself..aNd i'm very sorry to da gal becoz i think she muz be very angry wif me..i'm very very sorry..I like u so much,till i got jealous so easily..yea..so from now on..do not worry,becoz i won't sound a gal anymore..and i will juz shut my mouth if i love u so much..yea..How i noe she's angry wif me???good qn..now i think she dun bother abt me as much as she used to..And now the bonus qn is..''how am i going to face her if i meet her by accident..?''erm..i'm scared she will loOk away from me..and dun even smile..haiz..i noe i have created so much mistake..and i'm juz sorry...haiz..my qoute for the rest of my life is gonna be like this ..''u love her,u'll lose her..''i shall hold this qoute...well...i hope time changes everything..i hope it will be better...i always pray tt it will be good ending ,however my prayer hasn't been rewarded to me...erm...i'm juz wondering ah.. y doesn't a gal noe tt i have different personality?i can tOk crap,joke around wif my frens,but when it comes to a gal tt i like, tend to be more serious becoz if i joke ard,i feel that i'm wif her for fun only and not for something serious..gals dun understand how i feel..yea..tts y i always dun get a gal tt i like..yea.sad for me..good for them..yea..I juz hope i get a good wife in da future...and now she's changed her blog address and she nvr tell me..i've changed back my add..i hope she noes..she oso dun care when i wanted to tell her the other nite..so..haiz...it's fated...
