Aidil 0.1.41
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
ok it's 6.34 am..I can't sleep since last nite..my eyes are swollen rite now..This happen after she said she might fall for this particular guy...i knew this would happen..ok my heart crushed to pieces,my hopes are thrown in da drain.There's no more chance,there's no more hope.She said he is funny and nonsense..I noe i can't do tt..different people different personality rite?erm..she has known tt guy for a long time,went out wif him,chatted on da phone wif him and etc.I dun get those opportunity and how on earth is she goin to noe about me?she can't expect me to be funny in msn..there's juz no momentum..Ya i guess it's over now...from today onwards,i will stop disturbing her as she has someone whom she look forward to tok to....my whole dream last nite was abt her..i thought of her so much and she appeared..i think this is the last time i'm gonna dream about her.I will not try to sound a gal anymore..IT juz breaks my heart..the pain is juz too much for me..my dream gal is gone..gone wif da wind...she comes and she goes tt easily..no hope,no chance..she also dun care about me...so it's rather useless for me..i noe who i am...this pain will stick wif me for about 10-20 yrs of my life..Only God noes how i feel..''arafah do u think u will ever fall for ur fren?''arafah said...''yes..he's funny and nonsense''.Well tts about it..no more disturbin her..i hope she realise the difference without me...she dunno i'm funny and very nonsense when i am myself..well..wat can i say..she nvr gave me the chance to show tt...i'm wondering y doesn't a gal noe tt they have found the rite guy???she dunno i'll be the most loyal bf tt anyone has...i'm juz too boring for her..it's all my fuckin fault..i feel like crying ...my heart can't take it..y muz she torture me???this is fate...i nvr get to experience wat other ppl has experienced...sayonara aidil....
